F= father A= and M= mother I= I L= love Y= you

If I would have known my life was going to be this way, I would have changed every little thing about it. I cannot keep this feeling of emptiness inside anymore. I thought I found my purpose of life, but I don’t kno what it is anymore!

I’m in love with my boyfriend. I am taking a huge step with him.

I’m seriously thinking of just winding down and pressing on the off switch from a lot of things. I need to focus on me and my future now. Once my boyfriend leaves, I need to sit down and start saving money and paying down my credit cards. That would lift so much weight off my shoulders.

1. I have a fear of dying alone.

2. I trust others more then I trust myself.

3. I always forgive those who have done bad towards me.

4. I have self image issues.

5. I don’t like to go out that much because I’m afraid of getting into a fight.

6. My family means everything to me, but sometimes I wish I had a different life with them.

7 I lie to myself about how good my life is.

1. I don’t like sleeping alone.

2. I cannot sleep alone with my door closed.

3. I don’t know as much about life as I pretend to.

4. I don’t believe in myself when it comes to succeeding in life.

5. I have a crush on someone I’ll never have.

6. I have a fear of dying in my bed.

7. I never want to die.

—15 Basic Facts about me!

1. I am gay.

2. I have lived in the same house since I was 5.

3. I hate chicken.

4. I work full time.

5. I am 50% Italian.

6. I love to smoke hookah.

7. I use my phone more hours out of the day then I sleep.

8. I don’t like liars.

9. I don’t believe in myself.

10. I take depression/anxiety pills.

11. I love my family and friends.

12. I love piercings. I have 10 already.

13. My ears are gauged at size 0.

14. I love to party.

15. I have a short attention span!

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This seems fun!

My birthday is just hours away and I’m glad that I have made it to see this day! 5 years ago I didn’t think I would be alive long enough to see this day. What a roller coaster of a life I have lived. I’m thankful for everyone who has pushed me to keep going and inspired me to work things out.

A lot on my mind. Idk what’s going on lately but I’ve been scared =. Idk what I’m actually scared of. I think I’m scared of growing up!

Cannot believe that I ripped my pants at work =\ and I have been here for more then 8 hours!!