F= father A= and M= mother I= I L= love Y= you
If I would have known my life was going to be this way, I would have changed every little thing about it. I cannot keep this feeling of emptiness inside anymore. I thought I found my purpose of life, but I don’t kno what it is anymore!
I’m seriously thinking of just winding down and pressing on the off switch from a lot of things. I need to focus on me and my future now. Once my boyfriend leaves, I need to sit down and start saving money and paying down my credit cards. That would lift so much weight off my shoulders.
I have a fear of dying alone.
I trust others more then I trust myself.
I always forgive those who have done bad towards me.
I have self image issues.
I don’t like to go out that much because I’m afraid of getting into a fight.
My family means everything to me, but sometimes I wish I had a different life with them.
7 I lie to myself about how good my life is.
I don’t like sleeping alone.
I cannot sleep alone with my door closed.
I don’t know as much about life as I pretend to.
I don’t believe in myself when it comes to succeeding in life.
I have a crush on someone I’ll never have.
I have a fear of dying in my bed.
I never want to die.
—15 Basic Facts about me!
I am gay.
I have lived in the same house since I was 5.
I hate chicken.
I work full time.
I am 50% Italian.
I love to smoke hookah.
I use my phone more hours out of the day then I sleep.
I don’t like liars.
I don’t believe in myself.
I take depression/anxiety pills.
I love my family and friends.
I love piercings. I have 10 already.
My ears are gauged at size 0.
I love to party.
I have a short attention span!
My birthday is just hours away and I’m glad that I have made it to see this day! 5 years ago I didn’t think I would be alive long enough to see this day. What a roller coaster of a life I have lived. I’m thankful for everyone who has pushed me to keep going and inspired me to work things out.
A lot on my mind. Idk what’s going on lately but I’ve been scared =. Idk what I’m actually scared of. I think I’m scared of growing up!